今日は疲れて日本語で書く気力が無いので英語で書くべ…

It was a very long day today. Exhausted. When I'm done up and wearied out, I recollect the years I lived in the US - friends, buildings, the Charles River, the smell of fresh air, maybe the space, and the whole idea about Boston. Years I didn't even know anything about being gay might have been the happiest in my whole life. Having said that I remember I fantasized about men I liked, but I didn't know what it was.

In the train going back home from work, I often think about the "if-I-will-ever-be-born-again" thing. If I will ever be born again, it would be OK to be gay again, but I don't think I would want to be a Japanese. Perhaps, an American, a Canadian, or a Brit. An Italian would be nice, too, being a farmer producing wheat or olives. Anyway, I want to be a man again. Yes - that's for sure!

Well, so sleepy... Goodnight all and me in the next world. ;-)